In this hauntingly powerful book, a masterful act of autobiographical honesty, Kester Aspden pieces together the fractured shards of his former life and tries to make sense of the child he was and the man he became. Kester grew up as a typical lower middle-class boy in Thatcher's Britain: bright, popular at school, slightly shy maybe. Then, one fateful day when he was 17, Kester took a replica gun and held up a local shop. He fled the scene but within hours was arrested. At his trial the judge decided to make an example of him - he was sent for 18 tough months into a correctional facility. After prison, Kester moved into a Manchester bedsit, and engaged in low-paid work and regular football hooliganism. Before long, he'd signed up with the National Front and was taking part in meetings and rallies, selling copies of the official NF newspaper, The Flag, and fraternising with the party leadership. Fast forward 20 years.